My boyfriend.

I guess he doesn't make any sense.
When everything seems to be fine and dandy, I get shit on.
Like the other night:

I was over at Amanda's house, which is the girlfriend of my boyfriend's brother, and I had been getting the silent treatment from my boyfriend for about 4 hours now. I decided that it was time to take action. I asked Amanda to text her boyfriend and ask my boyfriend if his phone was on. He said no. I requested him to turn it on, and he did.
"whats up?" he said to me.
"Nothing much, I just missed you is all."
"oh k."
"yup." I waited for about 10 minutes with no reply, so I sent him another, "why aren't you talking to me?"
"k whatever." And thus this all started

Somehow this entire thing spiraled into me being to clingy and somehow he broke up with me, and after about 40 minutes of me yelling at him on the phone, we got back together.
I guess that this is all really confusing to you. Let me give you a little bit of background story.

My boyfriend, Tim, well his brother has recently died. I stayed over at his house for a total of 6 days. Over that time, we probably spent a total of 2 days together in all, including sleeping. He was always out, either with his brother or with his friends.

My boyfriend, Tim, knows that I am against drugs, drinking and smoking. The night that his brother died, he smoked weed. Tim started smoking again, infront of me. Tim drank, without my permission. All of these things, I let go.

My boyfriend, Tim, has a tendency to ditch me to go out with his friends and do other things besides spending time with me.

My boyfriend, Tim, has a very good act at not only being a pathological liar, but also an asshole. He has a tendency to make me feel like shit and ignore me for reasons that make no sense.

My boyfriend, Tim, you're probably wondering why I'm still with him. Well there is a quote that I use when I think of him and it goes like this.

“Love is needing someone. Love is putting up with someone's bad qualities because they somehow complete you.”
― Sarah Dessen

My boyfriend, Tim, I love him. He is a pain in my ass, probably won't make sense for years, has anger problems, and sometimes I feel like he just wants me to disappear so he can do whatever he wants, but he is the biggest sweet heart I have ever met. We connect on a level that i have never really experienced before, and our love is deeper than the regular puppy love that others last in for 3 months. We are a year and 2 months into our relationship and we are still going strong. Every relationship has their ups and downs, and honestly this is our first true down.

Even though I sit here and I am bitch about this like I am, there is no one else that I would rather be with than him. The way that he holds me at night, and the way that he kisses me in that way that's so gentle. Or the fact that I know just what makes him tick, and I use it against him in every way that I know how. 

My boyfriend, Tim, I will marry, because no one makes me feel as beautiful as he does, every day of my life.